Apa korang ingat akan terjadi klau berlakunya … salji di Malaysia dalam masa terdekat… bukan nak ketepikan logik tapi sekadar nak menjentik imaginasi kengkawan sekalian… semalam aku nak gi keja aku ada terdengar Hitz.fm yg membincangkan klau la salji turun di Malaysia apa akan terjadi… agak2 le apa akan terjadi ekk… satunya konfem umah yg ada air cond kena ada heater jugakle kan?… dahtu org yg jual penyodok mesti start untuk mereka penyodok salji yg lebih efektif … parit 2 kita mula bertutup balik le… yela klau tak air dlm tu mesti mengeras punya… secara tak langsung kita kena takut ‘banjir’ ais la plak… salji klau di ukur atas kekerapan turunnya hujan di Malaysia akan menyebabkan Malaysia banjir besar… kerana ukuran kubikal salji jelas nyebabkan kandungan air yg bakal turun adalah sgt menyeramkan… mesti byk tekologi baru kena kita belajar dari luar negara klau keadaan ni berlaku dan secara tak langsung Malaysia akan ada sukan luncur salji dan pasukan hoki ais Malaysia…buat team bola Malaysia…errrmmm alasan ja kot utk lagi gagal di masa hadapan… sebab pemain kita terlalu … ego… lain yg blajo lain yg praktik… memang le kekadang tu kena guna extreme measurement tapi beragak juga le….

This is one of the story that I had the time to write…I mean type of course. Does it must to be this way, once again I had the feeling of quitting the job and start over with another job that can offer better salary and job related to my qualification…a hectic overdrive to my physical…and of course a tormented soul…I really can take it anymore…the more I’ve became obediant the more they make used of me…and none came out from it…at least and increment in salary would be okey for me… ok lemme cut to the chase, on the 22nd January … I’ve just came back from my holiday in KL…without taking any consideration on the well being I’m in…the so called BOSS call me for presentation on the same day…the mornin’ I’ve reached Butterworth…what the hell he had in mind… nothing was actually being told before…so the conclusion,I did not have anything to be shown to the BOD… it’s really suck when u knew that this ‘right hand’of BOSS doesn’t want to admit her fault…she did not mention anything about this occassion to me and she claim to have mention it on last thursday…If she really mention this I would wrote it in my hp or my business diary…on top of that I’ve been bustin my butt to drive the Directors to KL for a meeting where I had to present a short presentation to the ‘Funding Firm’…such a waste of my energy and time…a really long journey in a day whereby U’ve drove a BMW(whatever series that use Diesel as it fuel) from Penang to KL(it took about 5 tired hours to reach the destination)…because I’m not really aware on the route in KL…It has been a funny moment where I took several leap of faith to reach the destination plus some help from my friend throughout a phone conversation…I’ve been travelling in KL using Lrt and buses…so driving was really not my thing… today errmmmm Tuesday …. the story actually happen in 22nd January…I’ve reached Butterworth at 2.30 am and unfortunately I’ve missed the match where the Gunners smack MU 2-1…but I did watched Chelsea amazingly being beaten by Liverpool thru Kuyt and Pennant…a really happy ending for me though…the moment I’ve reached my house about 15 min from the bus station…I’ve receive a sms from the BOSS ‘right hand’…oooo what an awful start for a week…4++ am…this messages really got my head blown up…I’ve open my laptop and did some Powerpoint presentation…simple one…while I’m doing it, my mouth also whinning about this terrible event that just hit me on the head…I’ve gotten really dizzy…enough for the bus ride…I need to stay awake to finish this damn thing … fortunately I’ve brought the laptop home…if not…something bad could’ve happen…

8.30 am- I’m driving my Proton Saga to the office…it’s really a precaution move though…If I rode a bike to my office, I’ve might end up hospitalize due to accident…sleepy eye plus a sea breeze and unstabble head… driving a car in other hand a lot safe by hearing some songs and made my own karaoke version.I’ve reached the office with a really smack on a face when I’ve been told that the meeting being cancalled…what would they thinking?…I’m really angry and frustrated … like I’m going to kill somebody that day…guess what…I’ve broke a mug that day … whose mug? of course the ’she devil’… after that I’ve rest at my table with a guilt in my mind… I need to take an anger management courses though…it’s been really a moment of ‘outburst’ in my working life lately… problem with my social life + bad working environment + unpleasent moment with the beloved one… what else might have happen to me in the future…today, Tuesday of course…I’ve been attack by minor headache which lead me to unnotice collapsed…while I’m doing my job…I’ve suddenly collapse…now after being to the clinic…the doctor just remind me to ease my work…not to over work my body…a simple conclusion even a ‘bogus doctor’ can made… he asked me whether I need to have some relief pills for the day…I didn’t really like pills or any other medicine  …. not today doctor… I’ve got to ‘retreat’ early today…my head really can’t take it anymore…enough for today…poor me, I’ve been really fragile lately, due to the problems that lingering in my mind…maybe I’ve gotta take my leave before 4…for the love of life…a hectic working class though…I had to share this with u guys out there…pretty much sedey…

MEETING

Apa pendapat korang tentang meeting…dgn ertikata lain klau meeting tu bermaksud perjumpaan dan skrg juga di sama ertikan dgn perbincangan atau musyawarah…tapi selalunya meeting mesti tempat di ‘basuh’ dan di ‘godam’ punyala… aku memang penat meeting ni…slalu sangat lepas meeting mesti hilang mood keja dan kekadang tu apply ja cuti…dlm meeting gak diberitahu cuti dibekukan…terbeku kepala aku…kekadang tu kita siap dah tempah tiket bas atau flight pn bleh terbantut…dah la Annual leave pn sket kemdian nak apply pn bukan senang…cam apply MC plak…apply MC pn kekadang kena kaco gak kat umah…sampai aku kena beli starter pack baru plak…nak wat camne…MC aku tutup je handphone tak pn letak je bawah bantal…tapi nanti time meeting jenuh aku di bamboo bos nape tak angkat tepon… klau dah dapat MC tu faham2le…tak sihat dan tanak pk tentang keja…aku ni diperah bebenor…penat dek kepala otak…seksaan minda dan fizikal…yelakan, nak wat yg terbaikkena bagi lebih,beli terlebih bagi mulala high expectation ke atas kita…silap aku gak yg gi nyerlah dalam keja awal2…sape suruh,so bila performance dah menurun mulale kena bekeng,ada je yg tak kena…aku ni dibawak ke hulu ke hilir untuk meeting kononnya exposure… meeting dgn datuk2 ni lain berdadab sopan dan penuh protokol tapi meeting kat opis teruk menadah telinga ja… sesekali terasa cam ditampar2 je pipi ni…time produktif gile…takde plak dipuji dalam meeting…bukan mintak dipuji…at least ingat balik je jasa2 yg lepas dan slow talk dulu ka sebelum meeting…klau ngadap secara individu at least bleh diskas2…ni klau dah dalam meeting, hancuss…muka pn dah tebal,apa taknya weakness kena point out kat batang hidung…jadi public figure versi mockery la…tobat aku nak fly below the radar je la…tanak rajin2 sangat bior kena hamput sket2 ja lagi aku sanggup…btul cakap org…lagi besor sesuatu benda yg nak di handle lagi byk dugaan dan risiko…sampai skrg nama aku dah takleh nak dicuci…so habis je projek bwh tgn aku ni,ingat aku nak blah cari kompeni lain yg menghargai org yg rajin berusaha dan bukan kaki jaki atau kaki kipas.Yela, time perform kita otomatik jadi anak emas bos dan org lain konfem jaki gile dgn kita…nak berkawan pn cam kena pulau je…adala gak yg masih nak kawan…dulu aku tak sedor ttg environment keja camni…sebab tula yg jadi anak emas bos ni mula dgn keja kuat dan dapat recognization dari bos dan lepas tu nak maintain status kena kipas bos dalam masa yg sama plg tak pn ajak bos kuar makan atau bawak makan di rumah…bukan bermaksud kata yg buat benda ni kaki kipas…ni smua dgn istilah paling kurang le…klau niat di hati tu ikhlas nak jemput bos makan di rumah tak kisahle pedulik org kata janji niat bukan nak bodek…klau tanak org kata pn jemput satu opis ke rumah.Skrg nak kata aku malas pn lantakla…aku pastikan tiap2 hari aku ada keja dan keja aku tak bertimbun2…klau harini keja sket…aku simpan sket utk esok…dan klau berlambak hari ni aku wat gak kat opis kemdian aku balik buat sket kat umah dan klau byk melampau aku stay la lama sket kat opis…nak claim overtime pn kena isi byk borang dan ditanya byk plak, baik bawak balik umah bleh wat sambil baring2 paling tidak pn…so, skrg dah 4.58 petang…keja tadi aku dah habiskan…ni file baru plak sampai…nak aku tgk dan esok nak wat collection…aku dah tanak wat keja…ni baru balik dari KL maa…drive keta pagi tadi sesudah subuh dari Penang ke KL utk meeting dgn one of the panel bank …dah tu meeting 30min ja drive balik plak ke ofis di Penang…of course aku drive bawak 2 org Board of Director.. Bos aku dah standby kat sana dari kelmarin lagi…tadi dah hantar diorg balik umah…aku balik opis jap utk selesaikan keja aku…file baru ni aku wat esok takpn minggu depan…sok aku half day dan aku nak pi bercuti awal muharam…dan ironinya…aku cuti kat KL jugak meh…tiket dah beli bas sok 4.30 ptg…samdol btul…bos aku klau mintak aku wat keja mesti kena ikut time dia…kecuali klau aku ada appointment dgn klien yg nak serahkan duit baru bleh ubah schedule…smua kena cepat…makan pn sembang bisnes…jalan kaki,naik lift even…nak balik pn selisih dia mesti dia ingatkan sok siapkan repot minggu ni k…agak2 korangle aku ni keja position apa?…aku pn dah taktau yg aku tau aku wat marketing,sales,collection (debt and sales), tolong akaun, driver,dispatch dan paling teruk clerical work cam asingkan files dan tukang photostat dan photographer utk certain mende… yg aku claim selalu mileage je skrg…dan aku dah ‘rehat’ kan tugas aku dari despatch dan debt collection…aku refuse tugas berkaitan debt dan aku gi keja kerapkali naik bus je, takpn naik moto parking kat blkg2 kedai makan…so bos kena faham yg ‘dokumen2′ berharga yg nak kena diserahkan ke certain tempat kena cari marketing officer yg berkenderaan berbumbung .sekian cerita merepek aku…yela asal meeting ja skrg mesti bos tgk aku pelik ja…aku rasa ada manusia yg cuba tabur pasir dalam periuk nasik aku ni…yela,dulu diorg mungkin rasa tergugat dgn kedudukan diorg…lagipn bos aku ‘caya nun alif’…nak keja dgn kerajaan, kerajaan tak mau so nanti dah cukup duit aku nak bukak bisnes la plak… Insya Allah jika dikurniakan tekad dan resource